Friday, August 16, 2013

Letters to My Former Best Friends

T - 1999 - 2010
Our whimsical childhood filled with creatures of incredible imagination ended with you.  I could go on forever in that world with adjacent minds and singed hearts, but it ended with you.  Our fantasy quickly faded and morphed into a harsh reality when you gave a quick hug accompanied by the absence of eye contact.  We were no longer damsels, and suddenly you seemed like the indifferent, much too cool, step-sister.  Even though you are 1 year and 7 months younger than me.  Even though you used to be on my side.
We were destined to be hand in hand for a long while, but you cut off all contact when you moved away.  Except, you still see C and I'm just sitting here holding on to nostalgia. And I will never forgive you for that. I'm starting to think you were on her side all along. (Was it because you were both in AM and I was in PM?)

C - 1995 - 2010
I think you're just too cool for me now.  Or it could be that I horribly and tremendously broke your heart.

J - 2001 - 2005
And you're too good for me.  But, this whole best friend thing was never mutual anyway.  We may have bonded extremely well over fowl and stallions, but not over what truly mattered.  Because I could never be there for you like she could.  You know, your (to this very day) best friend.  And I think she knows a lot more about you than I do because you didn't teach me, but I didn't teach you either.

S - 2009 - 2010
We were such a good pair.  You always endeavored to make me happy and I wasn't such bad company, right?  Although, I don't know if you were really utilizing your entire potential when following through with your so called plan.  I'm starting to wonder if you got close to me with a strategy alternate to your plan. Because I did terrible things under your reign and some people still have not found it in their hearts to forgive me.

J - ? - ?
I hardly remember my time with you except the time you spent kissing my cousin.

H - Summer 2010
You were never my best friend.